Everything is falling into place...

Welcome to my crazy busy, hectic, beautiful, evolving life.

I got a promotion at work, and I have loads more hours and loads more responsibilities. I'm so thankful! I absolutely love my job and I love the people I work with. I'm so blessed to be given the chance to get this experience while working toward my degree. It doesn't suck that my boss loves everything I write, either. :)

I'm also blessed to have a babysitter that is wonderful with my children while I'm at work. She goes above and beyond just making sure my kids don't kill themselves while I'm gone- she works with them on their Letters of the Week, finger paints with them, and more. This was my biggest setback when it came to actually finding a "real" job. I didn't trust a stranger to keep my kids, nor did I want them in a big room full of other kids where they could be exposed to germs and all sorts of other habits other children may introduce them to. Kindergarten is coming soon enough- I want to keep my babies as innocent and precious as I can for as long as I can, thanks.

Everything has just fallen into place perfectly. I feel like an "adult", like I've finally gotten my crap together and am contributing to my family's well-being while still being able to spend time with my children. Twenty-five hours a week is the perfect amount for me, money-wise and time-wise. I'm so so so so so so SO thankful.

As everything falls together, I've come to realize that other things must fall apart in order for them to do so. People you swore would never let you down, do. "Sometimes, you just need to distance yourself from people. If they care, they'll notice. If they don't, then you know where you stand." And that's okay. Being a wife and being a mother are the most important roles I can play in life, and I've got to learn to let go of the rest. And slowly, but surely, I am. 

Life is evolving into a beautiful place for this girl right now. <3

Haunted.

I have a secret.

There's a WHOLE other blog I've been keeping super private for a while now, for lots and lots and lots of reasons.

But tonight I'm sharing a post from it because I so intensely love this song right now.

Music is my therapy. Music is what takes my mind off a bad day, sends me into an alternate universe where I live, and where I stay inside my head when I'm in the car for the two-hour commute I drive four days a week now.

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"People haven't always been there for me, but music has." -Taylor Swift

There is a point in a relationship where you finally break a fragile line that you have so carefully been treading to avoid. That moment when you know that no matter what, Things will never Be the same, and you will be haunted by that person, that relationship, for the rest of your life.

"Holding my breath, won't lose you again. Something's made your eyes go cold. Come on, come on, don't leave me like this. I thought I had you figured out. Something's gone terribly wrong; you're all I wanted. Come on, come on, don't leave me like this. I thought I had you figured out. Can't breathe whenever you're gone- I can't go back; I'm haunted. Stood there and watched you walk away from everything we had, but I still mean every word I said to you."

LOL

Every once in a while, Tyler will bust out with something that gets me laughing 'til my sides hurt. Tonight, that happened.

We just got back into the hotel room from our trip to the Magic Kingdom and got the kids bathed and in bed. Then as we are unwinding from the day, talking about all the different experiences and stuff, we started talking about all the people that we encountered that were from different countries.

In order for you to understand how funny this is, you need to understand the situation, so I'm just gonna be candid with you.

Here's how I feel about it: I am not self-centered enough to NOT want to share America with you. Just don't come here and be rude! (Don't even pretend like you haven't had this conversation before, because you have!) I literally was sitting down on a bench when an old Persian man literally slid in underneath me. No, not kidding.

ANYway, we decided to post up an hour early to get ready for the Electrical Parade, and in doing so we got some pretty great seats in relation to the parade. So we settled into place at about 8:00 (the parade started at 9). About 8:50 rolls around and there's a family sitting at our feet (who was there right about the time we were) and we are up on a brick wall. Then a French dude sits down literally almost on top of me, in a squeeze space that Skyler had once been sitting in. French dude > Skyler. Then his wife asks me if I can scoot down. I looked up at her, said "No", and turned back around. Then five minutes later, as the parade was about to start, three Chinese ladies who didn't understand English at all guestured asking to squeeze between us and the family at our feet. Luckily, the other mom took care of them before I had to.

So, this is the situation you need to understand when hearing what sent me to the floor doubled over in a fit of giggles.

Me: "...yeah, did you see that French guy sit on me?"

Tyler: "Yeah, and that Persian dude that stole that bench as you were about to sit down. If he hadn't been older, I would've punched him in the face."

Me: "And those Chinese ladies at the parade!"

Tyler: "They just need to learn: This is America. We like our space, bitch. Why do you think we kicked the Indians out?"

I died. :)

Final thoughts

We're leaving for Florida in an hour and a half!
We'll arrive tomorrow around lunch, spend the afternoon at Downtown Disney, and then take the kids swimming and rest up for our big day at Disney World on Monday!! I am so excited to see their little faces light up; my kids are so excited.
Tuesday morning we're checking out of Orlando and heading to Daytona to spend the rest of the week "knee deep in the water somewhere". I can't wait!!

I decided to share some of my "OMG THIS IS SO ME" pins with you while I'm gone soaking up some Vitamin D in the happiest place on earth! :)

See my board here.

I'll post pictures when we get back! Love!!!